A mindfull...

So.. I guess You had to really be drastic to really get Your point across.. well.. we get it now... and this time.. for certain we are going to wait until we get married..

Lord, please don't let it be true that I had a miscarriage.. please just let things be due to stress and hormone imbalance.. and please don't let the hormone imbalance be because i had a miscarriage and my body just went topsy turvy for awhile.. like the doctor said..

I know there is no way to prove whether or not we actually were preganant and i had just miscarried.. but for my own sanity... please don't let it be true.. I would hate to think that i was with child.. and i would hate to think that i had lost a baby.. a little person.. a little person that is half me.. and half him..

You know how much I love children.. don't make it be so..

Please let everything be ok with me.. please keep me healthy and strong.. and please let my body return to normal again..

I guess I have a lot to ask for.. but here's a few more..

Not for me.. for Justyn..

Please let him get a job soon.. something that can really start getting him somewhere in life.. something that he can really make a living out of.. something that we can both see turning into soemthing fruitful...

Please help keep our relationship strong in our trust in You.. our beliefs in You.. and please guide us with what You think is the best way to raise a family under the circumstances You have brought in our lives..

I know that giving us struggles only makes us stronger and more faithful to You.. continue to guide us.. and keep our relationship as healthy and as happy as You possibly can..