It's not wrong.. is it?

Dear God..

I'm not doing anything wrong am i? Wanting to celebrate the new years away from the family.. and maybe celebrating it with friends over family.. that's not wrong.. is it?

You know family is important to me.. does it make it seem like i'm abandoning the family.. even if its' just one night.. the first night i've ever spent it with family over friends.. that she knows of..

It's not bad.. is it.. to want to do taht.. to want to celebrate it somewhere else.. to know what it's like to have that sort of experiences in life..

Why does she make it seem so bad??