I say a lil prayer for you..

Dear God,

Please.. watch over Justyn. I'd love to sit here and pray that you allow him to keep his job.. and in some ways that is exactly what I'm doing.. but.. I know that I can pray for whatever I want.. or what ever he wants.. and that the final say is Yours and Yours alone..

So.. I'll say this.. please be merciful to him.. he's been going through a lot because of this.. please show him some mercy and put some peace into his mind.. put some peace into both of our minds..

I hate seeing him like this.. I really do.. if only I could take the pain he was feeling and deal with it myself.. so that he didn't have to.. then I would..

I never thought I'd see the day taht I would be willing to take someones pain and deal with it myself so that the other person didn't have to.. I never thought i'd fall in love that deeply as to want to be able to snap my fingers and take away all that stress and worry he has to deal with..

But I have.. and through this all.. You have taught me about unconditiional love and patience.. and selflessness..

I wish I knew what Your plan was for him.. what Your plan was for us.. why do You like to make things so difficult for the two of us.. why you always seem to put obstacle after obstacle between Justyn and mine's ultimate dream of spending the rest of our lives together..

We both vow to live it according to Your teachings.. it's not like we aren't religious people.. granted.. we come from different religious backgrounds.. but the God is the same.. and the message is still the same.. we serve You cuz You are our Lord and Savior.. who suffered and died for us.. and we thank You and praise You for the awesome God that you are..

So.. why does it feel like.. You don't want us to be happy.. that You always put things in our way?

I'm not angry.. I'm not doubting You.. I'm just questioning.. wondering.. why.. if it's not one thing.. it's another..

I think we've proved enough our love and commitment to each other.. and i know we are very committed to You too.. so why all the obstacles.. why?

Watch over him.. make things ok.. make life be easier for him again.. bring back his confidence in what he can do.. make him feel his worth again.. take that dark cloud away from him.. let him see the person that I see hiim as.. the person with drive.. with spark.. that stirves for only the best.. make him feel like he's worth something again.. make him see that he will amount to something.. make him see that he is good at things..

Because he is.. he is all of that.. and so much more..

Don't make him lose completel confidence in himself.. let him see that he's only going through a temporary low time in his life.. and let him realize taht I am still here.. and i will always be here for him.. to hold his hand.. and to help pick him up during these times in his life..

In Jesus name.. I pray..
Amen.