The story of my life..

Dear God,

I know I rarely come in here and type out things. I go into the Blessed Sacrament and spend time with You as often as I can. I know that isn't enough and my prayer life is one to be questioned.. and I know there are so many things I can do to improve it.. I just feel like I don't have the time.

Again.. another excuse.. and it really shouldn't be the case. I really should make the time.. You always make the time for me.. right?

I just feel a little lost in this relationship again. I mean. I really feel blessed that You have put him into my life at a time where I can finally be happy and comfortable with myself.

It's always been said that you can't love someone until you love yourself..

And I think I am at that point in my life that I have fully accepted who I am.. and can honestly say that I love who I am.. there are things that need to be changed.. but don't we all have our flaws? That's what makes us human.. and You.. God.

I just don't want to feel like I'm wasting my time with him if he doesn't quite know what he wants out of this yet.. it's been six months.. and though that may not be a long time in perspective.. it's stil enough time to kind of have an idea..

He says he has an idea..

I wish he would just tell me what that idea is..

He isn't one for talking about stuff like that.. I guess I can't have it all..

Just help guide me.. help guide us.. let this finally be that something wonderful I have been dreaming of all my life.. please?