So is this how it ends?

Dear God,

So.. this is how it's going to end?

Me.. getting hurt.. beyond repair.. and then.. having that drive a stake into our relationship.. already bruised and barely fixed.. until.. we just can't fight anymore.. and then.. that's it?

I don't want that, God. I want us to have that happy ending. That's what we were supposed to have.. we were supposed to overcome all the obstacles that have been thrown at us.. all the near break-ups.. and all the people that have told us to let it go.. we were supposed to just survive all of that..

We were supposed to that Janet Jackson song.. "Love would never do without you.."

Our friends think we're opposites
Falling in and out of love
They all said we'd never last
Still we manage to stay together
There's no easy explanation for it
But whenever there's a problem
We always work it out somehow
Work it out somehow

They said it wouldn't last
We had to prove them wrong
'cause I've learned in the past
That love will never do without you

Other guys have tried before
To replace you as my lover
Never did I have a doubt
Boy it's you I can't do without
I feel better when I have you near me
'cause no other love around
Has quite the same ooh ooh
Like you do do do do babe

And then.. remember.. we're supposed to be that Shania Twain song.. "You're still the one.."

Even though I hate Shania Twain.. that was supposed to be the song I wanted to play at our wedding..

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

But why is it that we have to go through this again? Why is this impending doom feeling coming over him? I mean.. it will be hard.. if he doesn't go, God.. it's going to hurt so so so so so so so so much.. because I really need him there.. I really do.. and I know that it isn't his fault.. and I know he's going to try.. I do.. but i won't help with the pain..

I don't want it to get in the middle of us.. not anymore.. not again.. not anymore.. please, God..

Please find a way to let him come with me.. and if he can't.. please God.. help me find a way to get over this..

It's all in Your hands.. and that's all I can do.. but I want to be those songs.. God.. I want him and I to be those songs!