Seriously..

Dear God,

Seriously freaking out here.

I mean.. what are you waiting for? Why are You making us wait for something You know we both want dearly?

I know.. I know.. in Your time.. but I just don't feel like I'm on Your "to-do" list.

Are You trying to tell me that I'm not ever going to get married or have children? Why would You punish me that way? Why would You punish us that way?

We both believe in You, we both put our faith and trust in You.. why do You think it's not enough?

Maybe people that do not practice Your faith have all gotten what they've wanted. All my freinds are in the place taht I want to be in too.. but why can't i? Why?

I'm desperate..

It's impossible to shoot for 2008. That'd mean we'd have to be absolutely ready by mid-2007. Do you think YOu can do that for us?

I don't know. I don't know.

I'm freaking out here. Please show us some mercy!!

Make me a bird..

Dear God,

Remember that movie Forrest Gump? Remember Jenny's prayer in the cornfields..

Dear God.. make me a bird.. so i can fly far.. far.. far.. away from here..

I want you to do that for me..

I'm feeling depressed lately. I just feel like I'm never going to amount to anything worthy of being called an "adult"

I feel like I'm going to be staying at my parents house forever. I feel like I'm never going to make enough money to live on my own.. to have my own family.. to have my own children..

I feel like the time is speeding by so fast and I'm never going to catch up. I feel like a failure in life.

I know it's not true. But I can't help the way I feel. And it's really no one's fault but my own.. I could be striving.. looking around to make more money.. to make what I'm truly worth.. but i'm not..

I dont' know what to do..

I just want to fly.. away from here.. not forever.. but just for a little while..

Is it just me?!

Dear God,

Justyn's trying again.. please let something work out. I really, really, really, really, really, really don't want him going into the military. The very last thing I want is for him to go to the military. I don't want him to go. I have faith that you wil find a way to make him stay without miltary help.

We just want him to find a job. Please. Help him find a job worthy of making a career. Find him a job that can lead to his financial independence and family planning and raising. We want a family and a life together and we can't have that if he doesn't have a job.

Please help me find a job at the end of September of next year. Please let something open up here so that I can stay. I don't want to have to move jobs. I like it where I am at. Please help find a way to make me stay and to make more money staying. Please. I'm begging on bended knee. I want to stay here. Please don't make me move at the end of September. Please help me find something opening up in here.

I just want the both of us to have financial independence and ablities to raise a family and home on our own.

We are both old enough. I think we can handle it now. Please.

CCD

Dear God,

Please help my CCD class. I feel so frustrated. They don't seem to be understanding anything I say, or taking anythng I do seriously. I want to teach them all that I know and all that I can tell them, but it's so hard when I feel like I"m talking to a brick wall.

The other teachers don't seem to understand. They tell me to bribe them with candy and prizes. But is that really a good way to teach children about the wonders of Your works and Your life? No!

I know they are young. They are third graders, but it seems like the first grader that is in my class is more awake than the rest of them. I don't know what it is.

Please help me stay patient too. I find myself being so short-tempered. It's not that I'm yelling and screaming at them, I just feel like I'm so serious all the time and not being warm and nice like I feel I should be.

But there is 22 of them. Twenty-two students and one of me. Twenty-two brick walls and just me. I don't know what to do. I need You're help to open their minds.

I just pray at the end of the year, they know all their prayers and have learned something in this class.

The window?

Dear God..

It is often said that when ever You close a door, You open a window somewhere else. Could realizing that he can apply at other places out side of Riverside County the window that You had opened?

Dear God, I do want to believe this is so. But I know that with constant prayer, You will provide. God.. give me the strength to continue the Rosary and the Chaplet of Divine Mercy for I have stopped again, citing being too tired. I cannot be too tired for YOu.

Help me overcome my humanity in order to serve You better and to pray more dilligently.

Also.. please help me with my class. We just aren't clicking liek I did last year. Maybe my kids are just shy.. I don'tknow.. but there is a great wall between us.. help them open their minds to the things I want to teach them.. and help me teach them as best as i can..

So many things I seem to ask for.. and it always seems like i want more and more.. please understand that I am always so greatful for all the blessings you give me.. and I cherish them all forever and ever..